yest was a downer. while watchin an episode of Survivor, was actually moved by the swirl of emotions that went on during the meet-the-family sessions. I really felt the sense of loss, yet again. suddenly, was reminded of the precariousness of my situation and how it feels like not to have her by my side on my dip show. ah well, it wasn't meant to be, I guess. heartwrenching but I have to deal with it like I always had, all along.
Strength is not my strength afterall.